Our feelings seem to exist independent of our thinking.
Often I find myself in a ‘mood’ and I have no idea where the ‘mood’ came from.
It feels like my thinking is being driven by my feelings when in reality it’s the other way round.
The thoughts that I am thinking create the feelings I label ‘bad’, ‘depressed’ or ‘sad’.
The ones that work ‘best’ are habitual; I am no longer aware of having thought them.
They trundle along outside of my awareness.
Like changing gear in the car, I have long since stopped thinking about them consciously.
They work perfectly, directing my rising and falling moods.
Over time, day after day, year after year, I mistakenly think these created feelings represent who I really am.